When your ability to cope is outweighed by the stresses...
When you break down several times over a few days...
If you feel you have no time to breathe...
If your health is going out the window very quickly...
If you feel you have no time to do anything for yourself...
And if you feel like you're going crazy...

You're probably in a situation like me. I have no time to breathe. I have no time to relax. I should be doing a hundred other things rather than posting this. But for some reason, I have to do this.

I had a complete sobbing breakdown last night... the whole anxiety & couldn't breathe and drowning in tears...

And it wasn't fun. It wasn't pleasurable. It just made me acutely aware of what I'm doing to myself.

I'm too stressed out. I'm student. I'm only taking ONE class right now... but it's everything else right now that's really killing me.

Like saying goodbye to friends again. Three people... one for a year, one for two ... and the other one... who even knows. I'm overburdened with my responsibilities.

I need to work on boundaries. Learning to say "no". But it's hard.

I was told that I should only be relying on God and not others to always be there. Which realllllllllly made me unhappy. I worked so hard to be comfortable expressing myself and asking for help... now I'm told that's not right?

I want a hug. I want someone to tell me how to make it through this right now. I have no T right now. Nobody to talk to. I feel totally utterly alone. Abandoned. Like I deserve everyone always leaving me. Which is how I feel, whether this is right or not.

I just can't cope right now. I have too much to do. It's my fault though I guess. I can't plan.

All I know... is that if I can survive until September 2nd without hurting myself or drinking myself into an oblivion... I'll consider it a success. Which makes me so sad.

All of my friends IRL aren't there right now. They're all sick of me complaining. I am trying. I think I am anyways. I don't even know. I just feel trapped. Trapped again by my stupid life problems.

All I want to do is sleep right now. But I can't, I have a group to run in 1.5 hours. This afternoon I see one friend, for the first time in months... and who knows when I'll see him again.

My life is too complicated. Now if I could just make the headache stop, the acid reflux stop, if I could stop grating my teeth and if I could actually sleep appropriately at night... I'd feel a little bit better. But I don't know how to.

How can I have workaholic tendancies like this ... I'm a procrastinator, I know it. But I *always* do this... I've always got to be doing something...

but this is too much.

I wish I could cry right now. Or pass off responsibilities to others. But I don't know how to even do that.