Sorry if this comes off as ticked off because I'm really not.

Thanks everyone, but really, I don't go to hospitals unless someone is dragging me against my will. I really can't stress that part enough. It may seem stupid of me not to but I have to wait things out and exhaust every possible option before I go to hospital, but I guess it's coming of as sitting in my own pity or something to stay at home at not go to hospital. Something simple like going to hospital is not simple for an idiot like me and at this point in time I need to stay home.

I should probably shut up about this here because I don't want to bother or trouble people with this and I think I am. Sorry everyone I'll shut up about that in Depression.

It's hard not to feel broken beyond repair. I look at myself and I look broken. Mentally, I feel broken. Everyone has a breaking point and I reached that a long time ago, I think. I'm broken and a broken thing is tossed aside and thrown out. To be honest, sending a broken thing to hospital anyways would be a waste- it'll never be fixed again.

Too tired of faking strength.

But thanks everyone.