My last session was pretty intense. I let out some anger in front of T that I haven't done before...told him some things I felt towards my parents that I've never told anyone.

2.5 years later and he has seen some anger but not like last session. I have another one tonight and am wondering how it will go.

The way I'm feeling, T doesn't need to say much that might make me do something stupid like quit, walk out the door and go off on him.

I'm already brewing because lately my standing 7pm appt has been moved up to 615. Now that is better than canceling of course but I'm wondering if this is a sign that my 7pm may not be possible soon.

T did say he might change his hours months back but never heard anything since then.

I guess my fear is he will give 7pm to someone else. We had a discussion a few weeks ago about him ending abruptly on me one night. He goes over 5 or 10 mins sometimes if I am having a rough time. He was defensive a little bit, we had a small tiff and it was over.

Since I'm his last appt I'm wondering if he wants to switch me so he doesn't need to feel tense over the time.

Or perhaps I should stop obsessing either way, it's on my mind!