My dear friend (((((((((((((((((((((((((( dps )))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
Your pain is so evident

I'm sorry you are having to deal with this and wish I could give you even an ounce of peace.
How does a friend, who has never experienced your experiences, be able to touch you in a way you can feel that ounce of peace and understanding that I so wish to give to you? I guess all I can hope for is that in time, with love and patience, you will be able to feel and understand the love and respect that so many people have for you. And hopefully, you will also feel love and respect from within as well. I know you are working hard to get to that day....and I'm right behind you in your cheering section along with so many others here.
In the meantime I will extend my hand to you ................................................................................................................. Take it whenever you need it

sabby