oh Lenny .... i have tears in my eyes ..... my hubby loves me, and my kids and my friends IRL and here ..... i find it so hard to feel worthy of them all and you and everyones love .... i feel i dont deserve it at all ..... and anyone who loves me i wonder why all the time ...... i'm sorry you had it so rough too ....

ty for all you've said .... i'm still trying, but i dont literally know how to love me. Maybe if i loved me it would sound so big headed or something ..... sorry i'm numbing out and my mind is blank .... sometimes it's easier than thinking

hugs, ty, take care my friend, Love Jin xxxxxxxx