What is happening to me? I got told by someone, who must have no idea at all what it's like to have deppression: "I know loads of people with problems, for f*** sake michael, just cope with it!"

Cope...with...it? Just, just get a clue. That's the problem - you cant cope with it just like that. People that don't have depression just dont understand.

Dont get me wrong - I know that there are many people that feel as bad as I do, and have worse conditions than me..........billions.

But you cant just cope with depression, and she expects me to.

Well anyway - I have just started collapsing. I have banned nearly all 360 contacts on msn.......and deleted.

I have self injured, I chucked away all my good work. I have quit on everything. I cant be bothered to do anything.

I hate almost everybody. I hate myself. I am sad, angry and I feel pathetic.

I dont want to leave my bedroom ever again. I don't feel as though I deserve freinds. I threw my fan at the wall and broke it in frustration.

I had a few breif minutes where i thought I was gonna get up and go kill myself.

I feel worse than ever. I am thinking about death.

I am a b******, a freak and im worthless.

There is no need for me. Im a mess.

I dont want to f****** go out.

Im going duxford air museum tomorrow and I dont fu***** want to! I have to cus i dont want to upset mum.

Im maybe gonna run away tommorrow morning and not come back

I dont f*********** know

IM SO FUSTRATED!!!!!!