Hi Ariesmars;

Sorry you are not doing well and that you feel like giving up, but don't you are worth it and you are not a weirdo. If you don't feel your therapist is helping you, you should find another one, you shouldn't stop going to one, they can help it they are good. Sorry about your finances, I'm heading into the same problem, but don't give up, things will get better.

Take care, and please continue to see a therapist.