actually...
i think this woman may be ok....i wasn't too sure before my appt today...i'm just so scared

i don't tell people stuff...ever...and i never let people do stuff for me............i don't like not knowing what's going to happen or can happen

And i don't know if i can wait to see my doc or the shrink or whoever while the meds aren't working or whatever

it's just soooo tiring, the duality and knowing logically it's there, it's just that the meds aren't working, blah blah blah .

The BS that shouldn't be there or whatever is still there cause the meds aren't working or whatever...and it really does feel like i'm on the edge of sanity vs. insanity or whatever...i keep telling myself i'm fine cause i know the cause......it's just soo hard knowing it's not right, why it's not right and it STILL feels like it's not right and is STILL not right or whatever

if that makes sense that is
i don't know anymore