I have my list of my good traits and it pretty much matches up with yours except I would add honest and loyal for sure.

My challenges (negative issues)
Trust- I have dealt with that with the help of these boards the last few weeks and you were a BIG help in me finding out that I do trust myself.
Appearance- I don't know how to do that.
Confidence- know what it is and what it takes to be confident but I just can do it here. I feel like a complete outsider and like I dont belong.
Independance- I am working on reaching out. This post is a big step in itself. I am a Independant/dependant kinda girl. I can do whatever I have to do myself but I want something to fall back on when it gets to tough.

We've talked about making friends and you know I decided I am not gonna try so hard. I will be me and if they want to be around then that is thier choice. I am tired of putting in 110% and getting nothing back except to question myself.

As far as a trip to America. I would like that very much but I can't afford it. I don't even think adjusting would've been so hard here because I am pretty adaptable and I do liek change and challenges but it was not make the slightest bit easy and so I find no joy in being here.

So , there you go.....Not fun to read but I am being honest with how I feel.
Thanks for caring.
Heidu

The highest reward for a person's toil is not what they get for it, but what they become by it.
John Ruskin