Thank you for responding ((((((((((((((((((((((((( dps )))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Yep, I knew you would understand what I'm talking about. Boy doesn't it just stink??? I think this shook me more than it has in the past because it was such a strong reaction. One I had not had since I lived in those days. I have had small reactions in the past to certain things, but not to the degree of this last one. Strange why this one would grip me more than others have. Maybe because it was so split second and there was no clues that this could happen that could have prepared me before hand.

During other times of a PTSD moment, I knew the individual and knew of their personality and had seen certain things from them that let me know they were capable of yelling and swearing (not necessarily at me, but at "things"). As an example, the sperm donor used to get absolutely bull**** when working on a car. He would have a hissy fit by swearing and yelling, throwing things then blaming me for whatever reason...(yep it was always my fault). Now, when I've been around other men who were working on cars, if they got frustrated and began yelling about it (not at me, just at the situation) I would always feel my stomach tighten but I could get up and walk away from it and nothing more would come of it. I was somewhat prepared just by the nature of the situation.

With this situation...it just happened in a split second, no warning, no idea what this man was capable of....so I think that's why the incident hit me so hard.

Thank you my friend...my sis for all your love and support. You mean the world to me!


sabby