((((((((((((( Christina )))))))))))))))

I'm so sorry you had the kind of incident that brought you such a reaction. But I'm glad you were able to figure out what the trigger was and you could work with it from there. Still doesn't feel good though

I never did work this through in therapy. The only times I've had therapy are for specific situational depressive states where I was dealing with family members mostly...not the ex, but aunts/uncles/brother/cousin type thingys. Pretty much anything to do with the sperm donor, I have worked on by myself through introspect, reading, self talk etc etc etc. So, now I'm wondering, should I work on this in therapy??? I'm not sure....it's not that I was brought down for long with this last moment, I was able to work through it pretty quickly, to the point that no one around me noticed or knew what I was going through or how it affected me. Maybe that's all I'll ever be able to do with it when it hits....maybe I've healed as much as my mind will allow and this kind of thing will always be a possibility?

In the grand scheme of things....it's not something that happens daily, or weekly or monthly. It may be once a year or once every couple of years. It's not something that ruins my life....or interferes with it for more than a few minutes. I think I can deal with that.

Thanks hon for your reply....it has helped a lot and given me something to think about!


sabby