yeah.. do you find the larger picture/terms/concepts easy to accept, but then the individual circumstances totally unacceptable? i do. Like someone could say that luring a 13yr old into sexual activity is abuse/assault... or luring/coersion of any minor by any nonminor is molestation.. and i could be swayed to agree, and would whole heartedly agree when talking about someone else. But if you begin to look at my own situation(s) then it breaks down. Suddenly the responsibility shifts and the concepts blur.

T says this is about my belief in my basic rights... or lack of rights. He says i apply one set of rules to everyone else and another to myself.

i just don't know. A year and a half with this T plus 6 months with the first one.. and i still have trouble with words that others use freely. i just don't know if i can ever crawl out of this. Maybe i am just not capable of grasping or applying this stuff.