Oh gawd.... at almost 46 years old - I wish I did know myself. What I see I don't like...

I want to change the parts of my personality that turn people off. OOH... see... I identified something (with your help).

Therapy kinda feels like I'm wearing shades through a thunderstorm. I still have no idea what I'm supposed to be doing there. All I know is that I feel like total crap most of the time.. I'm lonely and it makes me tired.. then I get depressed.. and I hate the way I look and no matter what I try to do to change it I CAN'T. I hate what my life has become and I have no clue how to change it. i hate being stuck in this and I'm jealous of people who move forward with such ease.

Sorry... I'm just having a crappy moment and I can't whip out of it.

Thank you
L