sherina,

first of all welcome to pc! i hope that you like it here. i have found much comfort here. i understand your dilema because i was in a similar situation myself. you can't go on faking, you have to find the strength to be honest with him. it's actually worse to lie and be in a relationship that you are not happy in. you have to put yourself FIRST. you deserve to be happy. and obviously being with him is not where your happiness lies at this point. at the end of the day it doesn't matter what your family thinks because they don't have to live with him and put up with him. i hate when family gets involved and turns things around to make us feel like the villian. you don't owe them an explanation. you are a grown woman and are entitled to make your own decisions, without being judged for them. i wish you the best of luck with this, i know how hard it is to make that decision and actually go through with it.

-agony