I had to take my "safety" Xanax again today . It makes me feel so guilty. But I know the next time I give into the desire it will be bad. I go for deep and it could get dangerous (not that I care at times).
Anyway, I was just checking in a little, in my drug stupor, and will be heading back to bed. The worst part of this is that I am isolating from my family, but they don't like the cuts either.
Also, I'm not knowing how much more I can resist because it usually grows and grows until I need to do it to get rid of the thoughts.
I'm kind just venting, but needed to get it in writing.
Take care everyone and stay safe and I will try to too.