your better than all of this... i know exactly how you feel. i was in such a %#@&#! ditch almost 2 months ago, i thought that i would never get out. drugs, alcohol, cutting everyday, staying out until 5 am, you name it.

but i got out of it. the temptation is always there, and i hate that all i want to do is grab my knife and rip open my skin.

recovery is possible, if i can do it, %#@&#! ANYONE can.
i've found Christianity to really help me.. i was never religious before, but once i stepped into it with a friend, it really did save me.
if you need to talk, i'm always here for you.