i used to do coke in my early 20s then was introduced to crack. like this girl i know once said that she thinks the devil himself cooks that stuff up in a pot in hell. didnt use everyday but on paydays every 2 weeks would get started on the stuff & didnt quit til all the paycheck was blown. we would pay bills & get started on it then would go & keep getting money out of the atm knowing the money wasnt really there--the transaction for the bills just hadnt went thru. so overdrawn bank account no money for food gas just scrounging to get thru to next payday. horrible way to live. well not living just existing. i know people where i live where thats all they do is get up in the morning & start hounding a hit of crack. they give people rides in their cars to go get the coke to cook it up & sale it & they get some of it for giving that person a ride or they let the dealers sell out of their house & they get some of every sale they make. every single day 24/7. when it gets ahold of u it just ruins u spiritually mentally emotionally financially & u dont wanna go around people who love u cuz u become depressed & antisocial. God is so full of grace & mercy cuz he always makes a way for us to eat & have gas 4 work when we screw up over & over. ive been praying every day that God will help us not to do it anymore. today my husband told me the other day a local crackhead offered to come & smoke an 8 ball with us & he told him no. God is helping us. and as for the coke i used to snort--after i smoked crack i could have cared less if i ever snorted another line--i wanted it in smokable crack form. theres people i know who have gone further & shoot it up. i didnt mean to go on & on i just know what recreational type use can lead to---dead end road & unhappiness.
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im thankful for every day God gives me & for His grace love & mercy He has shown me over & over through all of my screwed up choices
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