i felt weird about the social gatherings too Christina... glad to hear i'm not the only one also

i think it would be very helpful if you were able to define your boundaries with whomever you meet without disrespecting either them or yourself (which i know you would be concerned about)

people try to help and people help best by respecting each others boundaries.. we essentially teach others how to treat us by the way in which we treat ourselves...

i know you care ver deeply for your own health and others health... you've inspired me many times without knowing it...

you are human as we all are.. we are going to make mistakes at times and sometimes we step on our own toes... it happens to us from the time we breathe until the time we die... surely some lessons we do eventually nail down permanently but we shouldnt ever beat ourselves up for stumbling now and again... i know youre sponsor would tell you this... we are human and imperfect... we are trying, all of us are... lets give ourselves some due kudos now and again... i think you are doing great and hope you will ever step forward tho at times the path is less than perfect...