Thanks to you all. I appreciate your kindness and acceptance. I do like coming here where we all know what DID is and nobody gets mad at us for being split. You were all so nice.

Thanks too "Want to heal" for writing even though you are not in a good place. I know what that can be like.

I went to counseling today and it was all about the littles who are blocked in behind a wall with some very bad stuff that they are afraid to look at. Adult me is trying to let go more and let them have what they need. I just get scared too sometimes - their feelings are SO intense.

Judee, You are right, its about acceptance. I've let so many rejecting messages in and then I've been mean to myself just like the abusers. I feel like a fire cracker tonight - I just want to BLOW!!!!!

i wanna bite sumbodee. i wanna hit sumbodee. grrrr. im not nice. i don wanna be nice i wanna be scary an meen. grrrrrrrrr. snap!

I don mean to be ungrateful, but nobody seems to have ideas to help me get along with the brats. they drive me crazy and i need help with them. if I dont watch out they'll have me rocking teddy bears and acting like a toddler. thats creepy. i dont like being split. i want to be the only one and nobody else. phooey!!!!!!!!

Leslie Leli and Leah and the pixies (grrrr)