I give up. I'm soon ready to give up on any hope for my life as it is.

What it all comes down to is quite simple.

It's the old "We will tell him anything if it can make him feel better, even though we know what a loser he really is" story. That is not the same as telling a lie to someone because the intent is positive.

I say this because nothing I've said to support my view is being considered.

I know it's all done with loving supportive intentions. PLEASE DON'T FORGET THAT.

I am what I am and that's that.

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Forget about looks. There are plenty of other reasons I'm isolated that have nothing to do with even having a negative attitude.

I've posted quite a bit of unrelated off topic and often positive things in the forums and the reaction (or should I say non-reaction) clearly says "he's not one of us". Everything about me is just too different, my opinions, my interest in various things, my style of conversation and I'm just not part of the "flow" that everyone else seems to be so naturally a part of here.

That's been the story of my entire life and it's my OWN fault for being me and I'm so sorry about that.

I can't take much more of living like this and there appears to be no answer in sight.