When I am being rational, I think it is real in its own way. It is real, genuine, and incredibly intimate but is only for a short time (1 hr) . I think the intensity of it is what freaks me out. I get drawn in and caught up in what was discussed for days afterwards. Its like I'm supercharged and I want to just keep pushing though the crap, asking questions, getting attention;but it is over and I have to wait. Thats what make me feel emotionally dependent and obsessive. It seems like once I finally engage I want to keep going. However, when I really step back, take a deep breath. I realize... if it was gone tomorrow, I would be sad, but I would survive.

It is real... its just not an everyday relationship