Thank you. I will read through more of your posts - it is validating in a way to hear that others have had such similar struggles. I'm not sure how to PM yet but I'll figure it out. I do wonder about the Bipolar diagnosis. I know many have been diagnosed with major depression (the current diagnosis) only later to be more correctly diagnosed as Bipolar. I'm not sure that there have been any "manic" episodes, but without knowing very much about the illness I would imagine there are shades of gray with that. Maybe the ongoing online relationships does fall under that category...

Making a decision is definitely hard for me. I don't know where to draw the line and I haven't figured out how I'll know when I know. Thank you for your support.