Its not possiable to just not think about it. If something upsets me I think that trying to find out what other people think their ideas and tell people what I think is healthy. I never meant for this to be a she is wrong he is right kinda post. No one will always agree on everything that would be impossiable. I am glad every one who wanted to responsed with their honest thoughts, I just no longe will be thinking of myself as mentally ill. I also think that therapists should be carfeul that they dont just start throwing schools of therapy at a person with ptsd until they both agree that the client has been heard and treated with love and compassion first. Thats what really helped me, I have been in good therapy for 6 months. My therapists listen to me hear what I have to say and let me breath. They have not tried to change me unless its self destructive stuff, they listen to me and talk to me and really care about me. One treid some DBT mindfulness and when it was not helping she stopped and just kept listening. They treat me as a person not as a dx.
I understand that insurance needs lables, but those lables really can hurt. When I stopped looking at myself as sick or ill and just as a person who has had severe trauma, and is reacting normally becasue of it I feal more at peace with my feelings and reactions. I dont have to fix something that is broken I have to understand it accept it and talk about it and trough love and understanding from good therapists I am healing. I dont think I am a stupid stagnated person any more. Im not a victem or a survivor I am just me, and thats ok. This is just what works for me. Other people may need different things. Please lets just enjoy that we have this place to share our opinions and feelings and take what we can from each other and leave what doesnt help.