the only way that you'll feel entirely yourself is if you come out. Otherwize you'll just be hiding behind a mask your whole life. Come out, let your light shine and let yourself face life every day as the human being you know you truely are deep down inside.

You'll feel more alive this way.

I cant give you any advice as to what to do about your rents but I will say that your friends who truely like you for who you are will stay with you and those that attach too much value to gender stereotypes will leave you. But in the end you'll be left with people who care about the real you, now...i think that would be a litmus test of sorts to seperate your true friends from the ones who like the mask you put on and bow to social norms/homophobia.