(((((((( jbug ))))))))
sorry if this is the wrong thing to say but you will always have your memories and no-one can ever take those away from you.
and you'll always have a special place in your heart for Steve no matter who else you may come to love --- nothing wrong with that.
also, you're stronger than you may think and you WILL get through this.
much peace, love, hugs and care to you.