SE,
You have no idea what you have touched on (and maybe you do). A year and a half ago I lost my grandmother (she is of Indian decent. Apache ( Cherakowa tribe). The only human that I ever totally trusted. 6 months ago I lost two of my surrogate children 3 weeks apart to cancer. (My dogs). I started having visits that I will not go into now. I started living in a dream state and had the constant feeling that there were multiple beings around me constantly and that I was feeling all of human emotions at their rawest. At the same time I felt that I was evolving into something higher than I have ever known. I had the sense that I was caught between this world and another ancient all knowing spiritual world. Then I had a dream that I was surrounded by Native Americans in full dress. I was sitting on the ground with my head down and they were close around me in a circle the were doing something with my head but every time that I would look up to see their faces the circle would expand into a bigger circle out of my reach and their backs were all to me. I will not bore you with the rest but I came out of this with a sense of understanding and my grief was not so heavy. I also came out of this with a sense of power over the (non positive visits). I hope this condensed version makes sense to you at least a little. Anyway
Thanks for guiding me to the KEYS:
The deceitful promise of the predator is that the woman will become a queen in some way, when in fact her murder is being planned. There is a way out of all this, but one must have a key.
And know that I am GATHERING THE BONES:
You wish psychoanalytic advice?
Go gather bones.
Again I have linked this to my site.