i know its been awhile since my last post but i really just need to get this out.
i feel like such a failure,not only to myself but to everyone around me. im trying to layup on the cutting but i can only go for maybe 2-3 days before it gets to much and i go back. it feels so good when im doing it but when im done i feel like ive let myself down. im also trying to help one of my friends who also si's and i cant do anything for her. i try to be there for her and i try to be that person for her to talk to but im not. it seems like i only bring more problems to her and she never wants to talk about whats bothering her.i failed to be that person for her to go to if she cant even talk to me. im also failing several classes in school and have yet to tell my parents because they will kill me once they find out. i guess what im trying to say if i fail at life.

sorry for just wasting the time of those who read this.

max