My SI and suicidal thoughts have been increasing lately. I looked at this site to be cremated the other day and bookmarked it. I have been having my kids go to their dad with questions and activities, and have been taking Xanax to get me through the day by sleeping.
Anyway, today I was grocery shopping with my husband and I kept showing him what brands to buy, how to figure out prices, what the kids like to eat, how to prepare meals, etc. This kind of freaked me out because I wasn't doing it intentionally. I wonder if my subconscious "knows" something?
I'm scared and just needed to get this out. Thanks for listening.