ok i'm supposed to go bowling and i feel disgusting. i can't believe i'm all stressed out and don't want to go cus i feel FAT!?! wtf? i complain that all i do is work and i feel like no one has time for me and now i'm supposed to go do something that is supposed to be fun and i totally want to chicken out! i'm going to go only because my daughter is going too and i don't want to ruin her night cus i'm a freak. how insane is it that i feel what i ate today determines how i feel about bowling, and what am i doing having all these feelings about bowling anyhow? so, i feel heavy, as if gravity itself is pushing on me harder than usual, and i feel oily and gross. now i'm going to go smile and act confident and happy and hope no one sees through me or tries to feed me. so i just needed to get that off my chest, thanks for lettin me share peeps.