AHh I'm so sorry you are there, It is hard!! I hope you find some peace fast...Like someone told me the other day on here when I thoought I couldn't do another day, another hour, min...It gets better!
At the time, I thought on no, I need advice but when It does get better, that is what helped, It does get better. We are only given what we can handle..even if It doesn't look like that.