sabby it's new to me too ....i know she needs nurturing, i just find it so hard .... everything feels like a pity party, i am struggling with looking after me like everyone keeps telling me .... i've never been allowed to you see ... always een called selfish always .... so when people call me selfish now it kind of triggers .... i want to scream ITS MY TIME ..... I CAN LOOK AFTER ME FOR ONCE...... but i just feel so self centred every day, every week every month that goes by with this rot called depression ....... forever fighting with myself ..... guilt guilt guilt is all i ever feel .....

I miss having parents who care ..... but i never had that so how do i miss it ..... i see proud parents,my friends parents, and i wnat what they have .....

i'll shut up now .... sorry kx