ok.. T and i have a fab relationship. We get along really well, seriously. We tell inappropriate jokes, etc. He says I am one of maybe two people he can say some things to, and he feels perfectly comfortable swearing in front of me. i like it this way. i am known for just saying what is on my mind, and things kind of fly out of my face before i can catch them anyways... so i have had to get used to just being this way. Otherwise i just end up feeling bad a lot.

so...

i just gave T copies of music CD's etc... i always bring him little things. Nice things, often cute or whatever.

This time i think i %#@&#! up. WHy oh why didn't this occur to me yesterday? Maybe i could have prevented the embarrassment disaster about to unfold.

the CD i just gave him has a comedy sketch on it.. a really popular one. It is incredibly funny... and for the most part i think he will just howl laughing... on the other hand, i just remembered there is partial female nudity in it. Oops. i am feeling awful now. Also, as if this wasn't bad enough, i'm worried his wife is going to watch it.. could this get worse?

i'm not certain now how he will take this. i really was thinking of how hilarious the whole thing is... and i think he really would find most of it really funny... and he had said he had heard of this sketch, it's incredibly popular... and although he has never watched family guy he says his friends tell him he should. So, i am thinking that he would find the sketch a riot. i just feel really bad bc of the nudity, and bc i didn't warn him. A warning would have been best... then he could have decided.

It also feels really wrong - like accidentally having a parent overhear you telling a really dirty joke. i just *know* someone is going to think i did this sub/unconsciously as a sexual thing, but no way... my feelings for T are far more parental than erotic, believe me.. i am mortified.

oh god... i don't know if he is going to find my embarrassment a little amusing, or if he is going to give me the "apropriate vs inappropriate" discussion. Trust me, he doesn't need to. This was so lacking in forethought on my part. Thing is... that is pretty descriptive of me overall.. i just never think ahead.

given what i have said about how he and i are together, and keep in mind that we have been especially close lately, do you all think he will be upset with me? Should i feel this sick with embarrassment about this?