I been on antipsychotics since Thorazine was still big- off and on- and Im noncompliant because I cant be vigilent when i take it and I have Dissociative disorder so the question is if I can train my brain to stop dissociating as much by trying to stay in the present then why can't i train it to ignore the hallucinations and altered perception and paranoid thought disorder when i see it coming? Why should a med be any better than just my will power? I have to be keen if im not going to switch and dissociate and react to triggers so the meds defeat that purpose- Hell i wish i could just let go and be insane enough to not know Im haliucinated! This make any sense as a question? I can tell the difference from the voices inside and the intrusive images - and frank halucination- why cant you think your way out of both?