Thanks everyone and condolences for all our losses. I wish I could make sense of this but I guess ultimately it is one of life's mysteries.

I dreamt of my friend last night, she and I were shopping at a mall, she asked me to call her boyfriend and set the record straight - tell him that she was shopping. Then she went off ahead of me down an aisle to look for good deals. There were lots of sales but on closer examination I found that what was left wasn't a good deal, I tried on a chain shoulder strap purse and the chain broke. It wasn't a nightmare and I somehow feel now more peaceful.

Didn't sleep well but I'm okay. Her boyfriend said that in some way he felt relieved, he was concerned that that sounded weird but was reassured by everyone present that it made complete sense and wasn't bad at all. At least he knows what happened. They've been together 10 plus years and he's found her near death several times, along with calls from police etc.

I feel for our entire mental health community here in this area, they've been working with her in very close touch for 15 years or so.