You make a good point with your story. A year ago I would've been emotionally unable to leave my husband or move but I did what I had to do to get myself to a place where I could deal. I left him, moved out to a temporary place and begged friends and family for help to get back home. I got vitually nothing and ended up having to go back to my husband. There is alot more to me moving than just finding a plane ticket and a fork.
Forging ahead will be a struggle and I am afraid of life in general at this point as I really tried to live it and got smacked down pretty hard. I'm not really caught in a rut planning and waiting for the right moment. The right moment never comes. I am just biding my time and trying to make some use of it while I am doing that.
Congrats on your triathalon! What an acomplishment!!
Heidu

The highest reward for a person's toil is not what they get for it, but what they become by it.
John Ruskin