(((Miss Charlotte)))
You're not alone, I understand what you're talking about.
I thought when T went on vacation I'd be fine. I started to think about how to support myself -- not *while he was gone*, but period. My head somehow treated it as a permanent condition. I started to think maybe when he gets back the therapy would end.
I'm guessing it is part survival instinct, protecting myself in case T doesn't come back. I also think it is partly a good opportunity to grow, to 'test' the idea of supporting myself without T there. (Although I certainly didn't have this perspective at the time.)
What does it feel like not to be in therapy anymore? How can you support yourself as a person 'not in therapy'?
T came back, and I think I've let down more walls in a few weeks than I did for months.
I'm excited for you MissCharlotte, and I say embrace not being in therapy anymore!
Many