Thank you (((((((((( muffy )))))))))))

I appreciate all you say, and I do believe that I'm a good person. I guess that I said that because the emotions and thoughts evoked during these times feel ugly and not something a "good person" would think.

She so much has to be the victim that she creates trauma, and doesn't care who she brings into it. Of course, a victim always has to have a perpetrator, and that's so awful of her to set people up for.

I'm awful because I was hurt and abused and she doesn't believe it? I mean, she said she took it to her therapist and even she told mom that it's something she'd always known and didn't want to believe. Yet, somehow, it's my fault?

I'll just never understand. I get even angrier at myself because I know all this is part of her illnesses and personality; that I don't understand it because it's not understandable and still yet it affects me as it does?

Ugh.

Thanks, honey.

KD