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You are right. I've cut her out of my life twice now...about seven months each time.

I really don't want to do that again as she's alone now, and 67. Somehow that feels extremely ugly to me. So I try to, just as you said, "had hope of change, or of being strong enough to totally overcome evil?"

Yes, I thought my good intentions would win out. I truly did. I honestly did so well with it for so long too. However, I'm just not on her level...she's too good in such a bad way sometimes.

Bottom line, you're right. I need to figure out something that I can live with considering the facts. I promised that I would never cut her out again...she's too old, fragile, alone and ill. She has no one in her life because of the way that she is.

That said, I could still honor my promise and take contact to one per week or twice per month, couldn't I?

You are right, I know this. We've had the talks and your black and white words make sense and are from experience.

Thank you for your honesty and for caring.

KD