OH KIMMYDAWN, I feel very sad for you right now. It hurts so badly when someone should be trustworthy and they tear your heart out again and again.

I wish I could send healing love your way to wrap you up in a blanket and hold you safe until the ugly pains go away, far far away.

I've had similar things happen long ago with my Mom. I would let my guard down and expect her to act loving like a mom should be and she would gut me and leave me curled up in a ball of pain somewhere alone and hiding. %#@&#! it that is just wrong and should not be happening and I hate it for you.

My mom is dead and my biggest grief is NOT that SHE is dead, but that I never did get to have a real mom who loved me safely. Some people are just not fit to be moms and yet small people still come under their influence. That's just sad and wrong!!!

Wanting to just live in peace and be a good person is not too much to ask and your past life is NO ONES business. Some people are so narrow and sleazy they just don't get it that life is not about gossip and telling things on people. Life is really about love and kindness and sometimes the people who know that the best are the people life has hurt the very worst. I wish it wasn't so.

I don't know you really well on here yet, but I've seen you be kind to me and to other people and it stinks that this happens when you are already down from big stressors like the move and surgery.

I don't know how you feel about prayer, but I'd like to pray for you. If that is not ok, just know I'm thinking good thoughts for you and about you.

I'm sending you soft, butterfly hugs that just land gently around you and never hurt or hold too tight. I'm sorry this happened to you. You did not deserve this hurt.

leslie and the pixies



( - these are for your mom)