ever feel like ur whole self is crumbling andu just wanna crawl out of ur skin and have one day where nothing matters and noone is there to bother u or concern u or hurt u....i need one of those days.

today was a bad day in general....but i always seem to do the wrong thing..im freaking out about a parent talkin to me tomrrow about an incident that happened today....idk....i feel like who i am isnt good enough and changing wont do enough...i literally want to start over....a new person all together. I already hate who i am and what ive become, but its getting worse and i am losing control of whats really important and my main focus is who is gonna get hurt by me next. I want to get out of this body that has caused so much pain and hurt to everyone around me.

i NEED to go somewhere and scream...as loud and as long as i want....that or a punching bag to vent this frustration...its just building and i want it to dissapear.