TodayI feel hopeless, worthless, tired, emotional .... in other words a complete %#@&#! up .....

I have this feeling where my insides are heavy, i want to cry. My dad is a horrible horrible man ..... no feelings, my mother is out of my life....

how in hells name can i love me if my parents hated me so much .... my hubby and kids keep telling me to forget them .... is it me or isthat a bit harder to do ???????

i want to lash out at everything and everybody because i am hurting so much. i want to lock myself away. i'm not allowed to say what i really want to do.....

so ....sorry i'm apain in the arse yet again .... but that's how i'm feeling

me