((((((((((((Vince))))))))))))))))))

No, it isn't stupid. What she was doing seems like irresponsible parenting at the least ... perhaps emotional abuse? It's *totally* unfair to leave your kids in a situation that hurts them. You are trying to make excuses for what happened. But you were just a kid, you had no control over the situation. She did, even just a bit. Don't take on any blame that isn't yours to keep.

Don't drug yourself up because of this. Reach out for help, see if you can talk to a counsellor or someone else who will listen.