I don't know if this will help...
My pdoc... I have seen for.. about 7 years... every 6 weeks.... and... he.. not the different therapists I saw during that time frame... always... asked the same question... I have it memorized..
" and doesn't that make you angry"....
and.... it could be about XYZ abuse... it was all abuse...that I related to him.... my ex-husband.... in particuliar..
and.. I would always say "no.... I feel numb"
and then after awhile I would say "why would it make me angry?"
and he would respond... because you are a person and he hurt you...
and after many years of this... " I was relating something - and said.. it makes me so ANGRY"....
my purpose.. in telling you this... is that... it was my pdoc... so... I spent maybe.. 10 minutes with him every 6 weeks... relating my feelings... and... I was able to move... into dealing with my feelings..
Had.. I had.. a decent T... who I was working with regularly... just think of..the progress that could have been made...
so... it is really hard I know... give.. the process some time to work...
I would never have dreamed... that... I would actually walk into my podoc's office... and be able to say "I am so angry"...
take care..freewill
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