Dear tina,
I too would suggest that you talk to your therapist.
Have you ever journaled?
this can help to get your emotions out on paper...and also chart the progress that you are making.
some times we need a safe place to verbalize what we are feeling, to help make sense of the maddness of the past...you too can free the demons that plaque you.
write vent /keep posting...we are hear to listen and care.
((((HUGS))))
bizi