It sounds like what happened with me when I have what t called derealizataion.

Derealization (as well as depersonalization), like most forms of dissociation can be part of the normal human experience.

They can also be so severe that they become a disorder on their own, or as one symptom of another illness.

I'm so sorry that you're dealing with what appears to be much dissociation, and do hope that someone will understand the degree of how it's affecting your life.

What you describe sounds like what my t explained to be derealization:

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Unlike depersonalization which effects the perception of oneself, derealization is a change in an individual's experience of their environment, where the world around him/her feels unreal and unfamiliar.

Again, derealization, like depersonalization, is caused by a change in the way senses perceive our surroundings due to sensitized, anxious, nerve signals reaching the brain. Derealization is completely harmless but can be very disturbing. The more you give derealization credibility, the longer it stays with you. As anxiety levels are reduced, derealization disappears.

Terms commonly used to describe the symptoms and sensations of Derealization:

* spaciness
* like looking through a gray veil
* a sensory fog
* spaced-out
* being trapped in a glass bell jar
* in a goldfish bowl
* behind glass
* in a Disney-world dream state
* withdrawn
* feeling cut off or distant from the immediate surroundings
* like being a spectator at some strange and meaningless game
* objects appear diminished in size
* flat
* dream-like
* cartoon-like
* artificial; objects appear to be unsolid, to breathe, or to shimmer
* "as if my head were inside a Coke bottle and I'm viewing the world through the thick glass at the bottom"

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If that sounds familiar to you, you can read more here or many other places in order to try to understand more your experiences: http://www.panic-anxiety.com/deperso...derealization/

In the above site, they discuss it as it being secondary to panic/anxiety, but there are many causes I think?

Also, we're here for you and will support you in your journey of understanding and healing.

KD