Thank you so much, I really worry too much about what people might think, then i let them decide for me and feel like a muppet with strings! Till now I don't know what to do, I made up my mind but pulling the trigger is taking me eternity!
Sometimes I wish he would just hurt me one more time to find my easy out without needing to explain to the family what happened but then I realize that this makes me nothing more than a scared loser, waiting for time to fix my problems while I know that time won't do me any good if I don't start taking actions. I am just so scared.
Thanks again for your support though, it means a lot to feel understood and not judged by others.