Sigh, Yes its hard. I've got 3 more weeks to go yet and returned to work myself today, first time since my last session with T almost 2wks ago now. I've given up on trying to console myself and am just living with the pain. I did just lie in the bath and think to myself whether I'm being a self-centred humanbeing and would find more peace if I were to change my thinking from wanting T to hoping shes having a nice time. BUT of course I can't hold onto that, I want her, and I want her now and I know when she returns tis going to be hard and I'm going to go into shut down and it will take weeks to get back to normal again, and, and, and, what options do I Have? F&*king none! I guess I should be grateful I have a wonderful family here, but as you know, that part that wants T don't listen to any reasoning. It hurts and it hurts and it hurts.