Am struggling with the level of intensity of my flashbacks.

I have more the complex type PTSD from childhood abuse and find it really hard wen it seems that my body takes over and is out of control and is reacting to something that isnt there. But I dont usually have any conscious thought other than extreme overwhelming emotion, often fear or panic.

It often feels as if there is something very close and somehow I am holding it back, maybe a memory or is my body reliving trauma that i cant consciously deal with, sort of my body remembering but my mind not.

Its very scary and very powerful and overwhelming and none of my psyche team have really seen it as they never get close enough.

I feel like I am losing plot.