So how do some people manage it and I seem stuck?

Is it cos I built such a big defense system that its in the way?

Is it cos i only just told my family toleave us alone and made a statement to ploice, which they then decided wasnt enough to arrest, which was like being hurt all over again?

Why do everyday things seem to triggger feelings of the rapes or the abuse, even when it just someone invalidating me in some way.

How do you get past this really sensitised bit?

Not sure i can take much more of it, it scares me when my body reacts but i no idea wat its reacting to just that its scary and I dread it and want to avoid it at all costs!