Nice thread Echoes.

I am blown away by the realization of how traumatic my childhood really was. I had literally dissociated away years and through the relationship and ruptures mostly I have come to know my child self who is so very wounded.

I am shocked about my abandonment issues and how much I really needed my mother and how little she was really there. I never realized how lonely I was.

Self definition is a major issue for me as well. I often don't feel real and although I have a strong identity of myself as a mother, that is a role I play but isn't who I am. The rest of me is still hidden and also has trouble talking in therapy quite often.

Take care.